Jackie's Journey "...Ever Disappointed?"

I took a walk down memory lane this week!  I had forgotten about a colossal part of my story until I was reminded in a prayer letter from friends who went through this part of the journey with us.  It will take a few Monday mornings to get it in written form…so watch for the second installment on Monday of next week…

Shortly after Ralph and I surrendered our lives to missions, we found ourselves driving north from the University to Fredonia, Wisconsin to begin our boot camp training in preparation for ministry abroad.  As we approached our destination we could see miles and miles of farmland with quaint picturesque country houses and barns scattered here and there across the massive landscape.  It was beautiful.  It had the rural charm of yesteryear.  This city girl was enthusiastically taking it all in until…

 We exited our car as a woman moving in a great hurry met us!  She introduced herself and quickly instructed us to follow her to the over-sized basement of the adjoining property where we found several others involved in canning (?) countless fruits and vegetables from the garden they had just harvested! 

To my amazement, these experienced workers kindly assumed that I knew what they were doing and handed me a large spoon, told me “to skim the foam off the top” and with this one line of communication…they left me to it!   I took a quick survey of the assembly line they had formed in this large room and began to take note of what each person was doing to get to where I was.  I was one stop before the contents went into a sterile jar! 

Hours later, after being shifted to different stations, Ralph and I found ourselves carrying our suitcases into the two story building next door.  Relieved to be heading toward our new home for the next nine months, we commented on the unusually long hall and wooden floor.  Immediately, upon entering the building, we were led to the left, directly upstairs and into an 11 ft. x 18 ft. open room. 

Other families were arriving and our host quickly left us to settle in.  We stood in the nearly empty room and realized we were in a dormitory where we all used a men and women’s bathroom at the end of that long hall and any water needed for cooking would be hand carried down that same hall and then, disposed of in a well 100 yards behind our building!  I never realized how much water we used each day! 

After about two weeks, our little room became a welcomed sanctuary, as we began to process all we were learning.  As the semester came to a close, I found myself looking forward to Christmas break and a trip to California to be with family.  The day before we were to leave, Ralph, who NEVER gets sick, began running a high fever.  We woke up in the night to find he had turned into a chipmunk!  He had, somehow, contracted mumps!  That next morning, I stood at the dorm entry, distressed, waving good-bye to everyone in the dorm, as they threw their suitcases into the trunk of their cars and merrily drove out of the lengthy driveway to parts unknown.  I wished them well in my heart and resolved myself to gratefully caring for my very sick husband.  I had much to learn that day and the days that followed. God counted me VERY special that Christmas holiday!  My expectations were not as important as the lessons I would learn from being left behind.  I was to miss many Christmas’ with family over the years spent in Panama. 

Our introduction to Boot Camp was not what I had expected, the accommodations were not what I had envisioned and the scheduled Christmas break was not what I had planned.  My expectations had deceitfully left me in a ditch of disappointment.  Contentment was eluded on the altar of my pending rights!

Was this part of my journey what I had expected, envisioned or plannedNOT!

Expectation + disappointment = Immaturity

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future.”  Jer. 29: 11

 GOD had a better plan and His appointments often involve perplexing circumstances that are given with purpose to give us more light and to grow us up.  His vision for us is maturity.  His expectation is that we will harmonize with His plan and be the profitable servant He has called us to be for the cross of Christ.

Are you facing disappointments today?

 The manifestation of an unrealized expectation

is usually exposed by our anger! 

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Posted on August 21, 2017 and filed under Character and Virtue, Spiritual Growth, Motherhood.

Jackie's Journey "Ever Feel Unappreciated or Unnoticed?"

                    My princesses fast asleep in that hammock that swung across our main room!

                    My princesses fast asleep in that hammock that swung across our main room!

While living in the jungle my life was packed with survival living and a sense that life was passing me by!  It took a lot of time to live “off the grid” and my heart yearned to be able to just spend uninterrupted time with my two little princesses.  I would steal away and find myself with both girls curled up in the hammock that swung in the middle of the main room, book in hand.  Our calling was sure, the job description outlined, the need was great among these unreached people and our hearts were fully committed.  We were hidden in the dense Darien Gap and our job often times seemed insignificant and unnoticed. 

“A woman once fretted over the usefulness of her life.  She feared she was wasting her potential being a devoted wife and mother.  She wondered if the time and energy she invested in her husband and children would make a difference.  At times she got discouraged because so much of what she did seemed to go unnoticed and unappreciated.  “Is it worth it?” she often wondered.  “Is there something better that I could be doing with my time?”

It was during one of these moments of questioning that she heard the still small voice of her heavenly Father speak to her heart.  “You are a wife and mother because that is what I have called you to be.  Much of what you do is hidden from the public eye.  But I notice.  Most of what you give is done without remuneration.  But I am your reward.  Your husband cannot be the man I have called him to be without your support.  Your influence on him is greater than you think and more powerful than you will ever know.  I bless him through your service and honor him through your love.

Your children are precious to me.  Even more precious than they are to you.  I have entrusted them to your care to raise for me.  What you invest in them is an offering to me.  You may never be in the public spotlight.  But your obedience shines as a bright light before me. 

 Continue on.  Remember you are My servant.  Do all to please Me.”

(Roy Hessin, author of the Calvary Road)

“Life is a mission.  Every other definition is false, and leads all who accept it astray.”

Giuseppe Mazzini

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Jackie's Journey "Never Sacrifice the Permanent on the Altar of the Immediate!"

I heard this quote while in college and I remember the impact it had on me then… and still has on me now.  Life is short…man’s days are determined;(God) has decreed the number of months and has set limits we cannot exceed. Job 14:5 Our time is ordained by God.  We can’t presume on the future and we can’t change the past.

Life is a series of continual choices.  Each choice determines the direction of our developing character.  Convictions make us who we are.  The difference between a conviction and a preference is what it takes to stop us from doing the right thing in the light of what we know is right by what the Word teaches.

We are continually making decisions, both good and bad, that influence our destiny and the direction our children will take when given similar circumstances.  In a world filled with immorality, drugs, alcohol, and compromise at every corner, we are faced most often with the only biblical option…to stand alone.  Standing alone defines our loyalties toward others and also, defines the loyalty others have to us. 

But, most importantly, it defines our loyalty to God.

In a world where having friends, fitting a certain mold for popularity, defining our own values in a world with no eternal values and having to accept the inevitable consequence of our decisions,  often leaves us baffled with only two options…. standing alone on God’s side or the alternative, compromise, which will offer immediate gratification, but the cost will be on the altar of the permanent.   

Which will it be?

 The decision you make will infinitely influence those who are following you…

 Compromise means you sell out what you are…

for what you hope to get.

BUT

What you hope to get is not what you want

because you have been destroyed in the compromise process.

Who you were…you no longer are!

The permanent has been sacrificed on the altar of the immediate!

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Jackie's Journey "Do You See What I See?"

Where were the Tem Commandments first written?  Some people say Exodus; others say Deuteronomy.  What about Romans 2:15, where they were written on our hearts!

With this in mind, the following standard clearly illustrates the choices we make with Social Media between obeying and violating the Ten Commandments.

Exodus 20: 3-17

1.     Turn it off when you start spending more time with it than with God.

2.     Turn it off when you have more interest in the activities of your peers or Hollywood personalities than you do in God.

3.     Turn it off when God’s Name is taken in vain or Godly morals are mocked.

4.     Turn it off to honor the Lord’s Day.

5.     Turn it off when the authority of parents is challenged, belittled or neglected.

6.     Turn it off when someone is murdered or when anger and hatred are accepted and excused.

7.     Turn it off when lust or adultery are accepted or when you or others are tempted to lust.

8.     Turn it off when someone steals.

9.     Turn it off when someone tells a lie or misrepresents the truth and makes an excuse or rationalizes the offense to God.

10. Turn it off when someone covets or when you desire something that God does not intend for you to have.

What did God have in mind when He wrote

the Ten Commandments on our hearts?

 They are rules to live by, though we fail miserably.  They reflect to us our great need for Him because of our great failure to live righteously.  It’s so easy to say,  “Everyone is on social media…I have to keep up!”; “It is the “new” millennial culture, Jackie, get with the program!”; “How would I maintain my relationships or be able to keep pace with what’s going on in the world without Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest, iPhones, YouTube, T.V., Virtual Video Games, etc.,etc.?”; or “It would be impossible to keep up with life, if I gave God equal time”, .….

We live in a world consumed with social media.  Just checking in with all its networking tentacles keeps us occupied daily.  Setting it aside for an entire day would require intense willpower.  We observe each other... on the streets, when we are walking our dogs or children in strollers; in our cars, in the marketplace, at the family table when we gather to eat, in the bathtub; during times of entertainment or when guests are in our home…you get the picture…everywhere, all the time.  If we are not looking at a screen, we are carrying it…we read a book on it in a waiting room or in an elevator.  Being engaged in a face-to-face conversation with facial expressions and an opportunity to read the spirit of the person with whom we are speaking is a lost art and laborious in the light of a collection of abbreviations incorporated into less than two sentences.

It has been said that the eyes are the windows to the soul.  We are accountable for what we put before our eyes.   He’s watching.  Job made a covenant with his eyesDoes he (God) not see my ways and count my every step.” Job 31: 4; 36: 7 He does not take his eyes off the righteous.”

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Jackie's Journey "The Hills are Alive..."

Driving home one crisp and clear Monday morning, I looked up from the traffic to view an astonishing sight!  The hills were alive with masses of green flora!  “…He is like brightness after the rain that brings grass to the earth.” II Sam. 23:4   I live at the top of a valley and we have been in a drought for years.  The hillsides on both sides are either vibrant green or latent brown.  When green, the vegetation is thick and the variation of colors is almost more than the eye can bear in beauty.  When brown, it is as if the earth has closed its doors and left the ground dead, blanketed in weeds and dust.

“We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of

childbirth right up to the present time.” Romans 8: 22 (NIV)

The dry earth lies in wait.  It is dormant as the season’s come and go.  It patiently waits for the Creator to open the floodgates of heaven with rain to saturate the soil once again.  “He provides rain for the earth and sends water on the countryside". Job 5: 10    After months of “dry bones” the response to the nurturing dewdrops of the night past had been instant!  The blades of grass were standing straight up and immediately beginning to show signs of new life.  “The earth had burst into jubilant song… Psalms 98:4   ♫The hills are alive with the sound of music ♬ and covered in a magnificent lush green hue again!

I was so fascinated; my inclination was to burst into song!

“He calls forth songs of joy.” Psa.65: 8

“The earth is the Lord’s, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it…” Psa.24: 1I   All creation obeys God!  I was thinking what a difference this world would be if the “human” world, like the flora world, would instantly respond to the initial promptings of the Creator. What if we would immediately stand up tall with an eager response and dedicated conviction to be and do whatever our Creator asks of us?  We would change our world, as we know it!  Wouldn’t we?

When God speaks to you, what is your response?

 Is it instant obedience or is it a contrived excuse? 

Kim, our youngest daughter with Megan, our granddaughter,

Climbed to the top for a clear view of the green valley…

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Posted on July 24, 2017 and filed under Character and Virtue, Spiritual Growth.

Jackie's Journey "A Kingdom is Coming...Are You Ready?"

You know, when family gets together you never know what to expect!  A few weeks ago we celebrated Easter with half of my family in the home of my treasured 98-year-old Mother.  Between my youngest sister and I there were 13 young knights from ages of a few months to 16!    These "men-in-the-making" are distinctly programed differently than little princesses.  The 5 princesses present (ages 2-18) had elegant attire, all color coordinated.  The little ones were in ballerina shoes and fancy dresses; all had long silky blond hair, and gentle soft voices.  Yes, definitely princesses! They were quietly engaging all of us in conversation and the littlest one was dancing and throwing a ball with her loving and very patient grandpa. 

Those knightly little boys were busy from the moment they entered the room, glad to have someone to chase, throw a ball with, tackle and wrestle.  The pool became a focal point for all the hyper activity and competitive pursuits.  They were fast and focused, eagerly keeping up with all the action around them!  I have to admit that little boys are completely entertaining!  The continual motion and hilarious interaction made for an extremely pleasurable afternoon.

I  love the differences, as well as, the similarities between little girls and little boys.  Both were kind and respectful with each other and with those of us watching.  They both showed maturity for their age groups.  The fact that there was very little dissension of any kind was a joy to witness.  In the pool the girls were as athletic as the boys and the brothers and cousins were protective of the girls and each other. 

Families are little kingdoms being prepared for the kingdom that is to come.  As a mom, watching and listening with my own mother, observing the generation “in-the-making”, I found myself engulfed with numerous kingdom analogies.

The Old Testament is full of kingdoms that came and went, some righteous; some wicked.  Reading through the generations of families in times past, I observed a pattern: some started well and finished poorly; some kings sought God first; some kings were even acknowledged by God as diligently righteous like their forefathers before them.  Then again, there were many that were murdered and rejected…in some cases an entire family of sons was murdered by a new king or a family member!  Often a godly king was followed by his ungodly son who took the throne and destroyed everything God had done in his father’s generation.

Where will our children and children’s children take us?  Are we preparing them to stand alone in a geo-political world that is controlled by information from UTube, Twitter, Internet News, etc?  Can our young people discern truth from all that is out there? 

Are they biblically discerning or terminally distracted?

 The pull of the world is undeniable. Little princesses and little knights in shining armor are destined to be a part of God’s kingdom.  Our diligence and example will prepare them to boldly stand alone in an increasingly dark environment.

 What steps of action are you taking to prepare your little ones

for the kingdom coming?

“In love He destined us for adoption unto himself.” Ephesians 1:5

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Jackie's Journey "Can You Hear His Voice?""

There is a little boy in the Old Testament that teaches my heart every time I read his story.  His entire life was lived in the truth of understanding that God is Sovereign and his ultimate authority.  He was a servant in the temple and he became a mighty prophet.  His mother was a woman of virtue and demonstrated her loyalty to God by keeping her promise to bring her son to the temple at a very young age and leaving him there!.  It was one dark night while living in the temple that this little child heard the voice of God calling him.  I SAM. 3: 4-10  This boys name was Samuel and Samuel listened when God spoke.

For those of us who call ourselves moms and grandmas there is a flawless message that screams for our attention in this timeless record.  We, like Samuel, need to listen and hear what God is saying to us.  Our busy lives with its multitude ofdistraction finds us sacrificing the permanent on the altar of the immediate. We desperately need to heed the voice of God when He speaks to us. 

It is imperative to tune in:

Ø  Dependently – Apart from the Spirit teaching us we cannot hear His voice. I Cor. 2:12

Ø  Submissively – trusting that whatever He brings into our life is going to be received with gratefulness…no resistance to His will.  If we have no unconfessed sin and no unresolved relationships we are in right relationship with God.

Ø  Expectantly – anticipating His speaking to us…not doubting His ability to talk to us. Heb.11: 6

Ø  Silently- He whispers…we need to be quiet.  Psalm 62: 5   It is vital that we are inaudible and let Him do the talking. Psa. 46: 10   Instead of reading a list of requests…we should be pausing and listening to that still small voice.

Ø  Gratefully – listening carefully and understanding that trials plus acceptance with gratefulness grow us up! I Cor. 4: 7

Ø   Sincerely – eagerly listening to His voice and doing what is right with transparent motives. I Peter 1: 22

Ø  Reverently – Respectfully, even in awe, accepting that God is using the people and events in our life to produce His character in us…regardless of our circumstances.

Ø  Boldly –  God communicates what is essential.  We need to confidently listen and accept what we need to hear.  Matt. 7: 11

Ø  Attentively– showing God His worth and how much we appreciate His words to us by giving Him our undivided attention as He speaks to us. Heb. 2:1

Ø  Joyfully – elatedly listening with the enthusiasm of our spirit as our soul is in harmony with His will. Psa. 16:11

Ø  Patiently – accepting a difficult situation from God without giving Him a deadline to remove it.  Rom. 5: 3-4

This morning I received a phone call from one of the dearest persons I know on the face of this earth asking for prayer for her husband who is in the hospital and has been diagnosed with terminal cancer.  Her heart was heavy but her spirit was accepting with gratefulness God’s Sovereignty.  I had started this blog yesterday and did not realize how valuable it would be to me; personally, as I drop to my knees and begin to listen for His voice and pray…

Are You Listening?

Can you hear His voice??

“He who has ears to hear let him hear…” Matt. 11: 15

“He who belongs to God hears what God says.  The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God”.  John 8:47

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights. 

Jackie's Journey "LOST...who? Don't Panic!!!"

 

“LOST…who?  Don’t Panic!!"

Our friends have a five-year-old Downs Syndrome boy who was having a fabulous time at Sea World.  In an instant his parents realized he had wandered off and in a panic they began to run in every direction, calling his name.  After a few minutes others joined in.  Finally, he was spotted…head to toe, wet and muddy…. running to his dad who scooped him up in relief and hugged him reassuringly!  Upon arriving home they tucked him into his warm bed and opened up his backpack…out popped the cutest little live penguin they had ever seen!! True story shared by Yvonne Foust  

We are sometimes like that little boy.  We see or hear something that captures our total attention.  We get caught up in the exciting moment and throw “caution to the wind”.  The “something” may not be bad, but it keeps us from following the best.  God has given our children a safety in times like these by giving them…us!  Parents carry the responsibility to protect IF our little ones learn to choose to stay close where mom and dad can see and hear them! 

Listening and obeying …especially when we are in new places…keeps us alert to danger!  When little ones disobey by slipping away where they cannot be heard or seen, they not only hurt themselves…they hurt others.  That little boy’s daddy and mommy were afraid because they love him.  That little boy had been in water somewhere and could have been hurt!  That little boy took something that was not his (baby penguin!).  That little boy made a bad decision on his own…without asking permission of his parents.  That little boy made it dangerous for the baby penguin… and himself! 

We need to stay under the “umbrella of protection”.   The umbrella keeps the rain and pain of life from hitting us and gives peace and protection IF we stay under its shelter.  When we choose NOT to listen and go off on our own, we walk out from under the umbrella and the protection is gone.

This, of course, is true for us as adults.

Our little ones can certainly identify with this little happy and excited boy

…I know, I can!

Understanding we have an authority in a sovereign God that promises to protect us, as we listen and obey, is a superior plan and renders our responsibility for our little ones full of hope and promise.  We know that “for those of us who through faith are shielded by God’s power” are in the safest Hands imaginable.  I Peter 1: 5

Posted on July 3, 2017 and filed under Parenthood, Motherhood, Spiritual Growth.

Jackie's Journey "Do You Find Yourself Acting Impulsively?"

Do You Find Yourself Acting Impulsively?”

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Self-control is rejecting my own desires and what I want “right now”.  Regardless of what is going on around me, I set my limits and do what is right.

Lack of self-control is a phenomenon that affects all of us.  Some of us are battling quietly inside or some of us are overtly stomping our feet saying what we think without thought and demanding what we want.  Our natural impulse tells us to act immediately and it seems undeniable in the moment!

My grandson, Maverick, invited us to his eighth grade graduation.  There were no more seats, so my daughter and I climbed the stairs to get a better view of the stage.  As the names were called for each student’s recognition of accomplishment, each one stood and took the long walk to the microphone.  Leaning against the bannister, I impulsively commented on a young graduates very short dress with her extraordinarily long legs. Instantly, a gentleman standing a few feet away, reminded me that my statement was rude and there was nothing that could be changed…this beautiful young girl had long legs!   Being properly rebuked, I instantly realized my unfiltered and rude comment was cause for me to remain silent for the rest of the ceremony!

I can’t say what provoked me to say such a thing, but the thoughtless comment was irresponsible, offensive and impetuous.  “Self – control is instant obedience to the initial promptings of God’s Spirit”. Bill Gothard In this case, a little self-control was in order, and neglected, when the Spirit whispered in my ear, “not profitable, don’t say it”! There was no instant obedience to the prompting of God’s Spirit.

Do you ever find yourself acting impulsively?

Dignity is the capacity to hold back on the tongue what never should have been in the mind in the first place.  Blessed is the woman who having nothing to say, refrains from giving wordy evidence of the fact!  There you have it!

“Even a fool is thought to be wise IF she keeps silent,

and discerning IF she holds her tongue.” 

(Personalized) Proverbs 17: 28

 “She who guards her mouth and her tongue

keeps herself from calamity!”

(Personalized) Proverbs 21: 23

 I am grateful for the stranger who spoke up and reflected my need to take control of my tongue that day. God spoke through him for my benefit…

Thank you, Sir, wherever you are…

~Jackie Johnson - I am a former tribal missionary to the Kuna Indians on the Colombian border in Central America.  Fluent in several languages, my husband and I currently pastor a Spanish-speaking church in Southern California.  My passion is discipling and equipping dedicated young women for life, marriage, motherhood, and beyond. I am the mother of two daughters and the grandmother of three Princesses and four young Knights.